Kids

[alterin]

Updating a couple of my LJ posts to hide them behind a cut. I'm not trying to hide my past, but I feel like it shouldn't be so open? And I want to keep it for posterity sake? So if you want to go down the rabbit hole... I feel as if my biological clock is ticking. I know. I know. I'm a dude. We don't have those biological clock doohickeys. Sow our seed everywhere we can, until we roll over dead. That's the clock, that's the plan, that's the purpose. Ready, set, go! But that's how I feel. I want kids want day. I don't want them now, but I kinda want them to be in the game plan. I want to eventually have them. And I don't want to be a single parent. I want to have a partner in this game called life. And I want to see some of the world, and I want to go on roadtrips. And I generally want to have fun. I want to have the kinda fun only retired people have, and I want it to be while I'm still young enough to enjoy it. I want to be young enough when my kids are old enough to drink that I can go hang out at the "hip" bar and have fun. I want to have both. I want the girl with kids in the future and fun to be had now. I want to be in a relationship with someone who has potential. Maybe we won't make it and that's a shame. Cause earlier is really preferred, but that's because I don't want to be forced into that potential... Does that make sense? I felt so much more coherent when I started writing this.