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[alterin]

so... i'm home... and i'm alive.. but that's -not- the fucking point. i'm still not sober and while i may have thought i saw the whole fucking road.. making it up the stairs just punctuating the point that.. i am -not- fucking sober.... so why was i driving? yeah.. that's my fault.. i know i shouldn't have been... and i resisted for a while in not doing so.. but i can't fucking sit in my car -alone- and wait to be fucking sober to actually drive home... i -should- -not- have to -fucking- make that choice.. why the FUCK do i end up at these fucking parties thrown by some FUCKING asshole who... not even won't allow the fucked up people to leave... but who fucking KICKS OUT fucking people who are not FUCKING READY TO DRIVE?!?!?!? how can you be such a fucking asshole as to throw a party with enough alcohol for an army and then KICK OUT people who shouldn't be fucking driving??!? what kinda inconsiderate brain damaged... well fuck i'm not even sober enough to come up with the right fucking words to the describe the major king asshole who would do such a thing? fuck fuck fuck fuck