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2026-05-01 09:36 am

Reflections around the Class of 2026

Today is the senior grad walk at our school. Seniors are going to go through a rehearsal graduation, and then they’re going to walk through the halls of all of the buildings. All of our classes are going to be in the hallways cheering them on.

Couple of days ago, graduating students who were in my freshmen class started looking for their “freshmen letter” which I kind of did, but not really. It was optional, but this was also the last year we did blogs and then was an introduction post, so there are those words of wisdom.

All around it’s just a heightened sense of nostalgia, looking back, and reflection.

Typically around this time of year my emotions are in overdrive. I’m so very angry all of the time. I don’t think I take it out on anyone, but my showers are longer and I’m seething with fake conversations in my head with people who have wronged me or people I care about or ideas I care about.

Four things that are pissing me off right now. Read more? )
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2026-04-10 07:41 am

Focus of Public Education

I’m noticing that my titles are a bit vague and nonspecific when it comes to what I’m going to be talking about. Partly because, the nature of these are very much unplanned, very much stream of thought. I’m not aiming for a well-researched essay. I’m just trying to put the thoughts I’m having about the state of education into mini-essays that are just a little more specific than a tweet. And partly because, these topics are very metonymic (okay, maybe I’m stretching that) towards what I’m thinking about. They’re very much small portions of much larger ideas, and I’d like to think they’re well-suited for a blog.




We’ve had one good big “brand new” idea in education this millennium, and it wasn’t even new. It was just a wide expansion of existing pedagogical arenas. Ever since, we’ve mostly lost the plot about the purpose of public education. Anything that strays from making students “college and career ready” is a distraction, and the only way to make a student “college and career” ready is to focus on the foundational skills that will get them there.


It all started with the Bush era “No Child Left Behind” which is a mix of well-intentioned and dastardly ideas towards the destruction of public education. It’s always been hard to argue against, and so we’ve seen it strengthened in some cases and moved into a more positive direction in others. Ultimately, the idea is way too flawed. One of its key tenets is the idea that all children regardless of socioeconomic status can be successful, and that it is the job of a school to make all students successful.


Mini rant before getting back to my point incoming, but I also feel like it's time for a cut! Read more! )
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2026-03-27 12:39 pm

Reading Test Focused

There’s a huge focus on reading and math (but, I’ll stick to my speciality, thank you very much). But the methods, rationale, and the assessment don’t mix. The people in charge of education policy at the school district are very much removed from the classroom, and the research that they use to make their decisions is shaky at best. There’s also a continuous tendency for school districts to always be chasing the next big thing. What’s the next big program that will help us achieve our results?

And of course if you wanted to make a guess, you would probably say they’re going to use some form of AI to inform the data and the instruction. And of course, you’d definitely be correct.

I haven’t heard it directly from any sources because news reaches the people on the frontlines last, and there’s a possibility that as a high school educator, I won’t be hit by this. BUT, it looks like the next big thing in CCSD for reading intervention is going to be I-Ready. Now, I-Ready is not a new program, but the direction it’s going like, most other programs, is going to heavily use AI to make decisions about what is most appropriate for students of a given need for intervention.

I should probably cut this before it gets long. Read more! )
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2026-03-25 09:59 am

Who Is the Union, Actually?

One thing that I see that the public doesn’t understand-- and worst yet and more importantly, a lot of teachers don’t understand either-- is that the Teachers union is teachers. Most people want to separate the two as if there are teachers and then there are teachers unions. It’s especially prevalent on the political right, but like most things that are just known, what the political right knows as true is shouted from all of the rooftops of our stupid little algorithmic bubbles that are most definitely generated based on getting people as riled up as possible.

And it makes sense, teachers as a group are overwhelming popular. Sure, there are people who are very vocally anti-teacher, but for the most part, it’s fairly overwhelming popular. It’s in that public servant group that includes doctors, nurses, firefighters, and police officers (although, the last is maybe not the most in the group.) So if you’re anti-public education, you can’t necessarily attack the teachers. Instead, you need to create some kind of boogeyman that you can put all of the blame on. So, teachers =/= teachers union. But that can’t be farther from the case.

I should probably use cuts, right? Read more )
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2026-03-24 08:14 am

Student Teaching Programs are Too Expensive

I have a student teacher this semester, and this post certainly isn’t about how great she is. She’s great. And that’s my last student teacher was great. I was great as a student teacher, and then every now and then, we get a Karen who is not so great. All of these points are not at all the point.

Out of the classes that a teacher-in-training takes in their three and a half years of traditional classes, the only ones that are actually really useful are the classes that they take for their subject matter. Okay, maybe, I’m exaggerating. The first class you take in the field of education is definitely valuable. Notice, I didn’t specify which class that is? Because it doesn’t matter. The other 6-10 classes are generally rehashes of whichever class you take first. But there is one “class” that does matter, and it’s the bane and the jewel of the program.

I mean once your in a classroom. It actually does kind of make sense because when we have in-service days of training, the key is: can you find one thing of value to keep? And if you can find one thing of value in the six to seven hour training day, it wasn’t a waste. So as long as we apply that rule to the entirety of the teacher training curriculum, it’s all good! Right? Right. Kinda. Not really.

I should probably use cuts, right? Read more )

 


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2026-03-23 08:04 am

Musings on Grit

About 10 years ago, the big word in education was Grit. Grit was roughly described as the ability to overcome challenges.

I've never had a lot of grit. I've been able to get where I am and to float by and to sometimes succeed by a combination of beginner's luck, intelligence, and just an ability to pick up things and understand basic concepts. It kinda works out for me sometimes.

Where I've failed has been because of a lack of grit. I would start a new skill or hobby, and I would be fairly quickly pretty good for a beginner. When it comes to small roadstops or small challenges, my journey would either end or get sidetracked. Over the years, I've gotten better at this, but I'm a flighty pick up something and move on type of person, and I've shown a big resistance to working on my lack of grit. I don't have enough grit to get more grit?

Anyways, back to education. Ten years ago the word was Grit. Today, education has completely abandoned grit, and I'm trying to build up enough grit to put into words how dangerous and how horrendous this is.

I should probably use cuts, right? Read more... )
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2026-03-23 07:46 am

This is so weird

I got an email from Livejournal about 25 years since the creation of my LJ which is absolutely insane, but it's not quite as insane as the things that I've posted. Especially as a teacher of high school kids, I was basically these kids well into my late 20's! Wow!

But, it did spark a little bit of nostalgia. I've been trying to write more lately, and even though, the majority of what I wrote in here was sappy, crappy, unparagraphed junk, it at least fairly accurately shows my voice in a way that I did not quite expect.

Livejournal, itself, has gone through some crazy upheaval, and while it's so nice that they were able to actually recover all of my old journals, it's certainly not something that I want to support in any way shape or form.

So thus, here's dreamwidth! (is it stylized with lower case? the d has that dreamcatcher vibe, but it's definitely lower case)

I'm importing all of my old LJ entries. I'm still friends with some of the people that I talked about in the past, and most are still in the general orbit of acquaintances that I haven't talked to in years or decades. But it's still history, and it's part of my past and it's part of who I am now.

I'm torn on whether I want to make them private or not. I don't plan on advertising this to my general orbit in any way, but I think there's an outlet here that I could use right now. I imagine I'll have some thoughts on the state of education that I've been mulling over and considering turning into more in depth-- and real -- pieces. But I imagine this would be a good sounding board for that type of thing.

So, we'll see. Day 1 of dreamwidth.
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2026-03-22 08:00 am

Just a big section break.

WARNING WHINEY LATE TEEN TO TWENTY SOMETHING BELOW

I've imported my old LJ for posterity sake, and it's interesting in a historical artifact way. But holy crap, you probably really do not want to read it. I'm going to hide a bunch of the most recent ones behind a cut. Just to kinda give a little bit more of a buffer than the giant red text that is this post. 

WARNING WHINEY LATE TEEN TO TWENTY SOMETHING BELOW

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2011-10-18 12:43 am

50,000 word novel, one month.

http://www.nanowrimo.org/

Lets do it! It's roughly 1700 words a day. The gist is you sign up, you read the forums, egg each other on, and especially you write. It doesn't have to be good. It doesn't have to be all that coherent. It just needs to be written within the month of November. I can't see myself finishing it without support of people I know getting their write on, so lets do it!
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2011-05-20 12:20 am
Entry tags:

Rations

Updating a couple of my LJ posts to hide them behind a cut. I'm not trying to hide my past, but I feel like it shouldn't be so open? And I want to keep it for posterity sake? So if you want to go down the rabbit hole... Younger whinier version of me behind the cut )
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2011-05-09 01:21 pm
Entry tags:

Tidbits

Updating a couple of my LJ posts to hide them behind a cut. I'm not trying to hide my past, but I feel like it shouldn't be so open? And I want to keep it for posterity sake? So if you want to go down the rabbit hole... Younger whinier version of me behind the cut )
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2011-05-03 04:32 am

Eliana

Updating a couple of my LJ posts to hide them behind a cut. I'm not trying to hide my past, but I feel like it shouldn't be so open? And I want to keep it for posterity sake? So if you want to go down the rabbit hole... Younger whinier version of me behind the cut )
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2011-04-23 10:58 pm

Zumanity

Updating a couple of my LJ posts to hide them behind a cut. I'm not trying to hide my past, but I feel like it shouldn't be so open? And I want to keep it for posterity sake? So if you want to go down the rabbit hole... Younger whinier version of me behind the cut )
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2011-02-09 02:38 am

Kids

Updating a couple of my LJ posts to hide them behind a cut. I'm not trying to hide my past, but I feel like it shouldn't be so open? And I want to keep it for posterity sake? So if you want to go down the rabbit hole... Younger whinier version of me behind the cut )
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2011-02-04 05:23 pm

Facebook deactivated

It feels like a crutch that I spend entirely too much time on. I check it at every light. I glance at my phone every 10-30 minutes to see if there is an update from anyone. I whine passive aggressively at noone and everyone at the same time. I don't have any amazingly ridiculously trivial updates, but the are entirely too trivial. I feel like I'm begging for a connection in some way that I don't even understand. So I deactivated it. It's not permament. As soon as I log in, it reactivates. But I deactivated it, and I erased it from my quickbar and my iPhone. It feels so amazing to be free.
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2010-12-17 11:20 pm

Car

So... Two, years agoI voluntarily repossessed my Mazda cx-7... Roughly two years ago... I was paying $595 a month for a payment and 200 a month in insurance. I still owed 26,000... I had 10,000 in credit card debt.. And I had my motorcycle owing 8,000... So I was 44,000 in debt altogether.. And I was making my payments, and I had some fun money. But I wasn't making any headway. I making minimums and nothing more... And I didn't particularly like that car sad to say. So I repoed it. It got 13 at auction... So I owed 13.. It's now down to 4,000... My bike is also down to 4,000... And my credit card debt is gone. I should finish paying off the car and the bike first... But I've been riding my bike for two straight years as my sole form of transportation.. And I just don't want to do it anymore. So I most probably likely will be buying...
I havn't test driven it yet.. It's being shipped from Tuscon. 2005 Mini Cooper Convertible. It's 1000 under blue book from carmax. Payment of 260.. with insurance of roughly 90 month. I'm so very stoked. I've wanted a mini for a very very very long time. Actually it's the car I should have bought when I bought the mazda which was a purchase that got quite out of hand. So yes... After two years of being carless, it is about time.
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2010-08-27 07:23 pm

Cosmopolitan

I applied to the Cosmopolitan Hotel and Casino that'll be opening end of this year... One of the questions on the application was "Do you have at least 2 years experience working on a major strip property?" Well they didn't define neither strip or major property, so I was able to happily click "Yes." It's one of those requirements were if you no the computer just locks you out of the process and you're done. So I passed that part, and they sent me a quick online assessment. I must have did something right because I was invited to a group interview. Now I've never had a group interview before, but if all group interviews go like this one did... It's kinda cool! The goal I was told was to talk. What you say doesn't even really matter, they just want to see how outgoing and how quickly you can think on your feet. Well apparently I did fairly well on that too! Because now I have an audition... which is skills. They want two games, and I put forth only my two best games. The problem is one of those I've been dealing every day for 5 years. I will ROCK IT. The other... meh. My experience on it is limited at best. Depending on how they do it exactly, I can nail it. Or I could do miserable. The question becomes how much does me rocking at the other game(Dice, which is easily the hardest game of the four they want you to know two of) will offset the so-so performance on the other. Oh well, I'm going to find out! I have to go schedule my own audition.. I'm going to get some advice from people in the business on if scheduling later would hurt me first. I have a few weeks I can get better at my weak game maybe. We'll see!
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2010-08-16 05:22 pm

Mommy 3.0

She arrived last night. She hid in her room all day long. My dad got off work at 5ish. And he had to convince her to come downstairs and make an appearance. Holy shit! She's freaking tiny! Like 4'10" 80 pounds tiny. She ran back upstairs as quickly as possible.
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2010-08-15 07:47 pm

OkCupid Fun

So one of the most annoying things about the online dating scene is when you write someone an amazing message and you get no reply. All of your good intentions and thoughts go into a fun interesting short and witty message, and in response, she can't be be bothered to reply(if she even read the message!). But every now and then, I'll send someone a little "OH WOW! You're amazing!" message. And for this, I honestly don't expect a reply because usually I'm not actually hitting on said person because of the distance thing. I just saw a profile that I liked with a person attached that seems ideal, but she since she doesn't live in Vegas, there is no match potential there. I do it as a slight ego boost that just makes me feel better about myself, y'know? Well the other day, I wrote one of said messages to someone. And she actually did take the time to reply! Nothing amazing or detailed, but she replied and it kinda made my day.

I wrote....
You suck! Or I do, either way...
Aug. 6, 2010 – 3:50am
My favorite part of your profile, "or you don't drive a hummer" That's so awesome! But anyways, I'm just trying to ego boost you a little(your too far away for me to actually seriously hit on, but lets call it.. hitting on girls practice ;). You seem absolutely adorably from loving karaoking, to watching food network, to working in restaurants(I miss them so!), to cooking, for chasing your l.a. dream, to skiing, for liking cats, and for just plain being gorgeous. So yes, you absolutely suck for not being close enough to seriously hit on. Actually, I guess I kinda failed at the whole "hitting on girls practice" cause I'm fairly certain being worshiped only works for me and never ever works on anyone less narcissistic(which is most people) ;)

Good luck on the acting, and finding a non-douchey guy around here.

And she replied...
Thank you for the ego-boost, it was very sweet and much appreciated :)


Like I said nothing major, but it was really nice.
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2010-08-15 05:21 am

One Big Happy Family

How is this for sitcom material? As of 6:20 P.M. on Sunday the 15th of August 2010, I live in a house with my brother, my father, my mother, and my two-years-older-than-me step-mother.