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so.. i went to karen's house a few nights ago with a little disposable indoor/outdoor camera... i left her house having taken 27 pictures.... 2 survived... i had at least 60 pictures on that digital camera... it was stolen... from my trip to mississippi to see old friends who i havn't seen in years and i might not see again in years.. i have 2 pictures. 2 freaking pictures :/

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one more kiss could be the best thing but one more lie could be the worst and all these thoughts are never resting and your not something i deserve.. in my head theres only you now.. this world falls on me.. in this world theres real and make believe.. this seems real to me... you love me... but you don't know who i am.. i'm torn between this life i lead and where i stand.. you love me but you don't know who i am... so let me go. let me go. i dream ahead to what i hope for... and i turn my back on loving you... how can this love be a good thing when i know what i'm going through in my head there's only you now this world falls on me.. and in this world there's real and make believe.. this seems real to me.. you love me but you don't know who i am.. i'm torn between this life i lead and where i stand you love me but you don't know who i am... so let me go..just let me go... let me go and no matter how hard i try i can't escape these things i know i know when all the pieces fall apart you will be the only one who knows who knows you love me but you don't know who i am... i'm torn between this life i lead and where i stand you love me but you don't know who i am.. so let me go. let me go and you me but you don't you love me but you don't you love me but you don't know who i am and you love me but you don't you love me but you don't you love me but you don't you love me but you don't know who i am


just the song to hear that i didn't know existed :P ... i need to write about her again and end the saga.. i'll get around to it. i probably can't forget... truely heal untill i do :P