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Eye Contact
May. 17th, 2010 02:07 amLook me in the eyes! Look at me while I’m talking to you! Show some respect. What does eye contact mean? When you’re talking to someone, looking them in the eyes is a sign of respect. It’s a sign of honesty. It’s a good show of character. Eye contact is respectable. It shows self-confidence.
I use to look people in the eyes while talking to them, not in a creepy way, it is possible to stare a little too hard. But I looked at people in the eyes while talking to them, in a respectable polite way. And then I began working at South Point. It wasn’t a sudden change. It happened gradually. I have a hard time looking people in the eyes while I talk to them. It does happen, but it happens rarely. And it’s a concentrated effort, and I can’t hold it for long. I miss it.
So why the change? What changed? What happened? I lost respect. I lost respect for people. I lost respect for myself. At work, I no longer expect the person that walks up to me to have a heart. I no longer expect the person that walks up to me to have a soul. I expect a scum bag, the lowliest of the low. And at South Point 90% of the time, I’m correct. The person standing in front of me is a scum bag. He is the lowliest of the low. He is a complete piece of shit. I don’t have any respect for them. I don’t want them to be anywhere near me. I have this secret fear that he’ll walk up behind me and stab a knife in my back. I instantly want the person in front of me to walk away. I have completely lost respect for everyone that walks up to me. Through training, I have lost respect for humanity as a whole. And as a result, I’ve lost respect for myself. So while I’m talking to you, I’m looking off into space to the side of your head. I’m looking at the ground. I’m looking at my hands. Disrespectfully. Dishonestly.
I use to look people in the eyes while talking to them, not in a creepy way, it is possible to stare a little too hard. But I looked at people in the eyes while talking to them, in a respectable polite way. And then I began working at South Point. It wasn’t a sudden change. It happened gradually. I have a hard time looking people in the eyes while I talk to them. It does happen, but it happens rarely. And it’s a concentrated effort, and I can’t hold it for long. I miss it.
So why the change? What changed? What happened? I lost respect. I lost respect for people. I lost respect for myself. At work, I no longer expect the person that walks up to me to have a heart. I no longer expect the person that walks up to me to have a soul. I expect a scum bag, the lowliest of the low. And at South Point 90% of the time, I’m correct. The person standing in front of me is a scum bag. He is the lowliest of the low. He is a complete piece of shit. I don’t have any respect for them. I don’t want them to be anywhere near me. I have this secret fear that he’ll walk up behind me and stab a knife in my back. I instantly want the person in front of me to walk away. I have completely lost respect for everyone that walks up to me. Through training, I have lost respect for humanity as a whole. And as a result, I’ve lost respect for myself. So while I’m talking to you, I’m looking off into space to the side of your head. I’m looking at the ground. I’m looking at my hands. Disrespectfully. Dishonestly.
